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cast away

Posted on August 14, 2016 by Elbrecht

I awoke to pitch black darkness.

The voices were close. And interspersed with laughter.

My cerebral cortex quickly determined the voices were causing each other to laugh; and coming from two lone individuals.

They seemed friendly.

But I wanted to scream at them for awakening me from the depths of my restless slumber; yet I hadn’t quite determined if they were real.

I wasn’t even certain where I was.

As I stared into the darkness surrounding me, my eyes began to accommodate as the voices continued in their laughter.

My body felt heavy. My mind was confused.

Instinctively, I bolted straight up from my position; I realized I was lying in bed. Unaccustomed to its small size, I nearly tumbled to the ground.

In the midst of the darkness, my neurons began flashing in an electrical brilliance, trying to understand where in person, place, and time I was.

My right arm reached across my body as the fog in my mind abruptly lifted.

The restless slumber I had been inhabiting came to a crashing halt, as my thumb flicked the push-button on my phone to reveal “2:07PM”.

In that moment, my hippocampus determined I was located in the 2nd floor call room of the hospital.

A cataclysmic series of events brought me to be located in person, place, and time in the 2nd floor call room of the hospital on that July afternoon at 2:07PM.

Twelve nights had passed since I was shipwrecked on Night Float alone.

The plan, as it had been outlined to me several weeks earlier, would revolve around me undertaking a never-before-attempted solo excursion on Night Float.

My immediate fears had been squelched by promises of rearranged schedules and responsibilities, a junior resident as an occasional wingman, and deeply bound faith by my superiors that I was the only physician who could succeed in this plan.

My Ego led me to believe I could handle it.

But on Night Float, or “Black Betty” as I like to call her, all plans go quickly to hell.

Between the hours of 7PM and 7AM, a major metropolitan hospital is unlikely to have significant periods of down time. Instead, it becomes the breeding ground for Chaos Incarnate.

Which is directly where I found myself for the first 2 and ½ weeks of my third year of Residency.

Alone with Black Betty.

Nestled in her bosom.

cast away.

And longing for rescue.

By the beginning of my second week of Night Float as a PGY-3, my confidence had been rattled, but not deteriorated, like a rock face in the ocean having succumbed to centuries of waves bearing down it.

PGY-2 had been tortuous, but while working so many random weekend days and nights had crippled my life outside of the hospital, they had shaped my abilities as a physician, both in and outside of the hospital.

Ultimately, nothing could have prepared me to be cast away.

Another senior resident had been assigned to work on Night Float with me originally, but that had fallen through due to her unforeseen circumstances.

Then a thorough review of the remaining options turned up the following: unleash Magneto into the depths of Chaos Incarnate alone and see what happens.

{Note: I was assigned a junior resident as a “life vest” for a few of the nights, but he had to leave by midnight, like a mirage, to leave me alone, carrying 4 pagers, anxiously awaiting the next sunrise.}

At times over those 2 and ½ weeks, Magneto conquered the tasks set before him. But many a times, Black Betty rattled him to his core.

The toll of spiritual, emotional, professional, personal, and existential fatigue came to a head on the day I awoke at 2:07PM in the hospital call room

I found myself there not because I longed for the sweet caress of a crisply dry-cleaned set of linens, but because I had left my apartment the previous night in a fugue state.

Said fugue state resulted in me dropping my keys through the hole in the bottom of my book bag; they came to a clattered resting place in my building’s entryway.

I was none the wiser because NIN’s “Terrible Lie” was blaring through my ear buds.

Only when I rummaged through my book bag for an hour the following morning, proceeded to walk to my apartment hoping to find the keys lying on the sidewalk like a trail of bread crumbs, and had left two babbling and pleading voice messages on my landlord’s answering machine, did I begrudgingly saunter back to the hospital.

So when I awoke to the jovial laughter of two newly reunited long-lost colleagues, I hoped to find a message on my phone indicating the safe recovery of my highly-sought after keys.

Alas, at 2:07PM, there were no messages on my phone.

Nor were there any messages at 6:30PM when the melodic alarm emanating from my iPhone jostled me awake again. My mind was still cloudy. My body was still aching.

But Black Betty wanted another go.

So I meandered from the call room into the locker room, proceeded to strip down from my wrinkled scrubs and hit the showers.

The searing ice cold water streaming from the shower head caused my body to shiver, reminding me of my morning showers in Dominica, but I managed to cleanse the fine film of solitude from each and every square inch of my being.

I dried off, turned my socks and boxer-briefs inside out, and slowly pulled on a new set of pressed green scrubs.

As I passed the half-length mirror in the locker room, I quickly assessed my physical form and found my two-week-old beard to be quite fitting a man so unfamiliar with his surroundings.

I wondered if I would ever be found…

{lost and found}

The Agents of Archimedes

Posted on August 10, 2016 by Elbrecht

Miles Armbruster, the long-revered physician-scientist, thought long and hard about the consequences he was watching play out on the nightly news.

The plan he had set in motion nearly thirty years earlier was nothing short of insanity, but he was brash and naïve when it first popped into his head.

And now, with Al Jazeera, CNN, MSNBC, FoxNews, and all of the other major media outlets covering the same story, he looked out the small window in his office and briefly caught the faint reflection of his own smile.

The ticker at the bottom of his television read, “China National Tobacco No More.”

CNT was the last of the international tobacco companies to fail, despite Dr. Armbruster instigating his poisonous plan with CNT over 10 years prior. Its demise had taken by far the longest of any of the tobacco giants and nearly cost him his life.

On his desk, the small LED light on his phone began pulsing. He lifted it with his good hand, and clicked the thumbprint. The text message read, “Congrats.”

The sender, President Jaime Obregado Garcia, was never one to mince words with Miles Armbruster, a man he had known for 37 years.

He set the phone back down on his shaky wooden desk in a small university office in Omaha and thought for a moment about what he had done. Back in 2001 he assumed the plan would take 40 years to complete. He was off by almost a decade to the day.

Spear-heading the eradication of two of the world’s most harmful species, Nicotiana Tabacum and Nicotiana Rustica, should have made him world-renown. Or at least seen him accept the Nobel Prize in Medicine.

But “Big Tobacco” had been quite resistant to the subterfuge carried out by a clandestine group. Rough estimates placed their economic downturn in the Trillions of dollars. That type of economic loss put Dr. Miles Armbruster in a wheelchair. Two other members of their group lost their lives.

But hundreds of millions of lives had likely been saved in the past three decades from their step-wise annihilation; the number would certainly climb in the next three decades.

Not since Alexander Fleming had discovered Penicillin in 1932 or John Franklin Enders conquered Polio in the mid 20th century had such a monumental scientific prevention occurred.

Alas, Miles Armbruster had attained several other significant recognitions during his medical career, most notably the 2024 Nobel prize for his discovery of Streptococcus Pneumoniae as a symbiotic microbe in the beating heart of every living human being.

Instead, this time Dr. Armbruster would have to accept a text message from the most powerful man in the world as a consolation prize. Few ever knew about his lead on the genetic assault against N. Tabacum and N. Rustica; even fewer were still alive to share this momentous day.

Just then his wife, Dr. Jane Armbruster, walked into his office and smiled at him, “You ready?”

She stopped in the doorway and glanced at the television screen.

“Can you believe it? Who would have thought tobacco would get wiped off the face of the Earth. It’s almost ironic. I’m gonna be out of a job.” She let out a half-hearted laugh. She was not one of the privileged few who knew.

“You’re the ever eternally optimistic oncologist, aren’t you, Dr. Armbruster?”

She rolled her eyes at him and took a few more steps through the doorway, grabbed his right arm, and helped him ease himself from his desk chair into the wheelchair he used to get around.

He moved himself up to the television perched on the wall across from his desk. He let the ticker scroll “China National Tobacco No More” one more time across the screen.

His left hand reached out and tapped the On/Off switch. He swiveled back to his desk, collected his cell phone, and plopped it on his lap before leaving the office.

Jane closed the office door behind him. “How was your day?”

“Class was fun. I’m always amazed by what these students think up. And I got a text from Jaime. He was checking in.”

“How is the President these days?”

“Busy as always. But never too busy for an old friend.”

Jane smirked, “I feel like he’s more your friend than my brother every time I see him.”

“Well, what can I say, we “Men of Straus Hall” stick together.”

She stopped, bent down, and kissed him on the cheek. “Yes, you most certainly do.”

…

{The Men of Straus Hall as they collegially referred to themselves while studying as undergraduates at Harvard College, had been covertly re-named The Agents of Archimedes in 1999 by now-deceased member Brett Elias Williams. Now only a Nobel Prize Winning physician-scientist, a scion of International Economy, and the President of the United States remained from the original thirteen members…}

Black Betty

Posted on April 23, 2016 by Elbrecht

At 2:17AM on a recent Friday morning I couldn’t sleep.

Not in the sense that I was laying awake in bed, thinking about the cosmos, or wondering how “The Walking Dead” Season Finale would play into any future cross-over series that might be developed, or anxiously awaiting the sun to rise again.

I was actually physically not able to sleep.

As my body was beginning to shut down at the cellular level, the efflux of potassium and phosphorus from every cell beginning to overwhelm my blood stream, the pager holstered upon my left hip started chiming again.

The pager transmitted electrical energy, similar to that of a defibrillator, into my body; the potassium and phosphorus blasted back into the cells, preventing a super-saturated metabolic derangement which would have caused my cardiac activity to cease.

Simultaneously, the loudspeaker in the Emergency Department blared, “Septic Shock Alert, ED 47.”

“Septic Shock Alert, ED 47.”

I unholstered the pager from my hip, quicker than Doc Holliday when he penetrated Ringo’s brain with a lead slug, and glanced down at the message awaiting me.

As I swiveled and rose from the stool I had been atop for only a matter of moments, I read the message. Thankfully, it only read “Septic Shock Alert, ED 47”, the electrical companion to the overheard communication, instead of 555-9095.

Or 555-9030.

Or 555-9494.

Those numbers belonged to the Hospitalist medicine service, the Intensive Care Unit, and the ED Nursing desk, respectively.

Responding to any of those calls would have meant either another patient was waiting for me to admit them to the hospital or an already admitted patient was trying to die in the ICU.

If any of those three numbers had been present, I would have needed to take over the care of the actively dying patient in the Septic Shock Alert, while simultaneously trying to:

1) figure out how in god’s name I would possibly get all of the work done I still had to do

2) supervise my junior resident

3) not lose my mind.

I also probably would have taken the pager and rifled it into the closest wall, hoping to have it explode in a wave of energy like the Death Star in Episode IV.

My Junior Resident sat beside me, near catatonic from Night Call’s siren song; I tugged at his scrub top, motioned for him to follow along, and let out a long sigh.

I could not sleep.

I was the Senior Resident on Night Call.

Or as I prefer to call her, Black Betty.

Black Betty is the anthropomorphic representation of Night Call, the overnight shift when physician staffing drops to a skeleton crew and the statistical probability of all hell breaking loose starts creeping up on 100%.

As the sun begins setting on a hard day’s work for most of the physicians, nurses, and ancillary staff in the hospital, Betty begins to rear her ugly head.

Her darkness requires the fortitude of a special type of physician.

Unless you are a Resident like me. Then you are required to show up to spend some time with Black Betty as a part of your training.

You are not a special physician. You are a Resident. And the only thing special about you is your ability to not spontaneously combust from the lack of sleep you have sustained.

Every Resident dates Black Betty. Some for a night here and there, with no specific frequency or expectation. She does not discriminate.

Others join her for a two week stretch; where her smooth skin becomes chapped and dry by the third night, her velvety caressing hands become stiff and arthritic by the seventh, and her formerly gentle kisses become vicious flesh-tearing wounds as the sun rises on the tenth.

Black Betty invites the denizens of the night to start shuffling into the Emergency Department.

And the critically ill whose lives are sustained by technological marvels in the ICU to begin their physiologic derangements.

They are joined by the sickly and elderly who become unpleasantly delirious as a result of her rancor.

—–

To this point in my Residency, I have spent over 20 weeks with Black Betty. A majority of those weeks have come in two week chunks, spread over In-patient Medicine, Surgery, and Obstetrics.

But as a now as a PGY-2, the Senior Resident, I have also had more than my fair share of random Saturday date nights with ‘ol Betty.

She and I have been intimate more times than I would care to admit.

Each date brings about something unique, whether it’s a patient hurtling a chair through a 7th-story window, a near-dead woman’s heart beating in full view of the audience in the trauma bay, or stabbing a needle into a man’s chest to hear the whoosh of air escape and provide his lung the opportunity to re-inflate.

She is fertile with opportunities for us to perform our duties as physicians.

Black Betty had a child, the damn thing gone wild.

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At 2:43AM on a recent Friday morning I exited ED 47 with my Junior Resident in tow.

Black Betty had provided us an opportunity to exercise our clinical judgement, initiate resuscitative measures, and stabilize an elderly gentleman who had tangoed with the Grim Reaper several times in the past two months.

The Reaper’s grasp had tried to choke off the man’s air supply. But we would have none of that.

Black Betty didn’t care. She shrugged it off.

She knew other opportunities awaited.

And my Junior Resident and I would be there. Waiting.

I would not sleep.

Not when Black Betty has anything to say about it.

The Rise of Magneto

Posted on January 31, 2016 by Elbrecht

The Birth of Magneto

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Since their inception, movies and television have glamorized the life of a physician, often intertwining personal stories of said physicians with the heroic acts they perform and the inherent braininess required therein.

This is only a mild reality.

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Sure, physicians are by-and-large smarter than the average bear, but it is our tireless work ethic, attention to detail, and self-loathing which provides us the ability to make such a significant impact in the lives of our patients.

There is little glitz, even less glamour, and only the occasional heroic act in the life of a physician. But the combination of these traits keeps many of us going back to work every day.

No. I mean EVERY day. As in… working EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.

In case you can’t tell I’m currently smack dab in the middle of my second year of Residency (aka PGY-2)… a time I have affectionately termed, “The Rise of Magneto.”

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Though some more recent medical dramas have included the lives of Residents, this middle ground in the hierarchy of medicine is poorly understood and recognized.

After completing medical school, newly-minted physicians in the US must complete a Residency before becoming a physician capable of practicing on their own.

In the US, simply completing medical school is not sufficient to become a physician; no hospitals or physician groups will hire you; no insurance will reimburse you.

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Instead, you must prove your worth, knowledge, and skills by completing a Residency in the specialty of your choice.

Alas, the general public is not fully aware of this transitional stage in the professional life of a physician. There is either “you are a doctor” or “you are not a doctor”.

And if the patient is sitting in a gown, on an exam table or on a hospital gurney, while asking for medical help and you identify yourself as their physician, “you are a doctor.”

Which, in fact, you are.

Confused yet?

Well, I am too.

Because now that I’m half-way through my Residency, I am starting to find myself straddling the line between being a naive Intern and a full-fledged Attending.

—–

The major reason Residencies exist in the US is due to the wide swath of information and skills needing to be honed in order to provide adequate medical care in the 21st century (and the 20th century before it.)

The sheer breadth of knowledge acquired during these training programs is paramount to fully understanding the capabilities, pit-falls, and intricacies of the human body.

It also introduces physicians to the longitudinal aspects of caring for patients and their families.

—–

One night while I was an Intern (PGY-1), I responded to an overhead page from the Emergency room; my assistance was requested in the care of a critically ill patient.

Not exactly “my” assistance per se, but by being the Intern on-call, I was part of the team responding to patients who have such a severe infection as to be called “Septic“.

The woman was non-responsive, cool to the touch, and seemingly every square centimeter of her body was swollen with fluid.

Her vital signs on the monitor were tenuous. A quick scan of her body revealed a tube protruding from her pelvis, most likely a surgically placed catheter to drain urine from her bladder.

The daughter sat at the bedside, quickly describing the course of actions she believed could have led to the current predicament.

Despite her seated position at the bedside, her fear was palpable.

I thanked her for the explanation and informed her we would need to pursue aggressive measures to save her mother’s life. Without hesitation, she consented.

Over the next several days, her mother remained unresponsive in the Intensive Care Unit, her life supported by machines to keep her lungs delivering oxygen to her swollen body; medications kept her heart pumping that same oxygen to every fragile cell.

—–

But one day shortly thereafter, I arrived in the ICU and the mother was no longer in the room.

The bed was barren, immaculately cleaned, and prepared for the next critically ill patient.

She had died overnight, her body unable to sustain life despite the most aggressive medical interventions, all while I attempted to regain my cellular integrity through several hours of sleep in my own poorly-cared-for apartment.

—–

Six months later, I was working in the office of an Oncologist (a doctor who treats patients with cancer) preparing to see his next patient. While thumbing through her chart, he described the course of events leading her to seek his care.

When we entered the room, I saw a familiar face. The daughter of the non-responsive woman I just described. She smiled and greeted me, though I instantaneously recognized her palpable fear.

The Oncologist was surprised and said, “you two know each other?”

I responded, “yes, I cared for her mother.”

—–

There were no heroic acts which changed the outcome of the mother’s life. Unfortunately, there were no heroic acts to perform for the daughter either.

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In our current “illness-based” medical system, which more handsomely rewards interventions while people are ill, even Family Medicine docs like myself tend to more commonly encounter patients when they are in need, rather than when they are well.

{This is more a by-product of when people tend to seek out care, rather than a desire on most physicians part, as Family Medicine is predicated on prevention of illness.}

And sometimes the wellness and illness intersect.

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Having completed two months of Obstetrics and Gynecology during my intern year, as a PGY-2 I have become “eligible” to work 24-hour shifts on the Obstetrics service.

The Rise of Magneto, indeed.

{By eligible, I mean the cap on my consecutive hours able to be worked is now 24… And I am assigned to work said shifts based on my availability. Which is truly, whenever. But that is Residency. So be it.}

Within the first hour of working my first OB-24, I delivered the baby of a woman I had never met, which is common on the Labor & Delivery service.

After ascertaining the baby’s general health and wellness while identifying the absence of suturing opportunities in the woman’s vaginal canal, I calmly congratulated her, welcomed her son to the world, and exited the room to tend to another pregnant woman.

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One week later I was working in the Pediatric Emergency Department, my latest assignment as a PGY-2, when my eyes were drawn to a patient’s Chief Complaint on the Patient Tracking Board.

It read “fever, decreased PO intake”. I scanned over to the patient’s age and read, “7 days.”

On my first night in the Pediatric ED I had seen another 7-day-old with fever and decreased PO (oral) intake. I ended up performing a lumbar puncture that night on that child due to a concern for meningitis.

Thankfully, the test results came back showing that the child did not have meningitis. It recovered quickly and was home within two days.

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But that experience had quickly alerted me to the need to act quickly and decisively in order to prevent a dire outcome.

So I clicked my name next to this latest 7-day-old child and quickly proceeded to the patient room to evaluate him.

When I opened the door and introduced myself, the mother and I instantaneously recognized each other. She was gently rocking the boy I had delivered only 7 days previously.

“Doctor, please help him.”

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I had only a week before assisted his exit from his mother’s womb. I assured his mother we would care for him and made my way back to the area where an Attending physician was awaiting my assessment and plan.

While I alerted my Attending to the intimate relationship I possessed with this child and his mother, a few of the other Residents and Attendings happened to overhear the predicament.

They all began to listen in as I outlined my plan to perform a Lumbar puncture to assure he was not rapidly deteriorating at the hands of a bacterial foe.

My Attending agreed, looked at me intently, all the while recognizing my whole-hearted investment in this patient.

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There are few instances in medicine as intimate as the delivery as a child, and to have that same child fall ill and somehow end up back within your care in a completely different hospital on a completely different medical service only a few days later, is the essence Family Medicine.

We can be seemingly ubiquitous.

Thankfully, the young boy, only a week into his life, tolerated the Lumbar puncture; his cerebrospinal fluid was absent of life-eradicating bacteria or virus; he was sleeping comfortably in his own crib again within two days.

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The transition from “medically knowledgeable but clinically deficient Intern” to “clinically seasoned and seemingly knowledgeable Senior Resident” is one fraught with pitfalls: sleep deprivation, anxiety-producing clinical scenarios, life-and-death struggles, and glaring holes in medical knowledge.

But at the moment of greatest despair, when the chips are down, the night can’t end, the day can’t come soon enough, and the struggle to become a good physician seems out-of-reach, the Intern becomes a Senior Resident.

And reflects back on the do-or-die nights, the life-and-death days, the thankful patients, the grateful families, the new-born babies first squeel, and the meaningful and life-long relationships created in the cauldron of uncertainty…

… bringing on The Rise from Intern to Senior Resident.

In my case, The Rise of Magneto.